*WARNING* hardcore rant sesh.

Saturday, February 4, 2012 | post a comment {0}

Good to know that I'm the only person left on the dating scene who observes good relationship etiquette.

Ok, that's a bit of a stretch, but honestly. What's wrong with people these days? You individuals piss the fuck out of me.

Going out with someone right after breaking up with your "significant" other? Not bothering to tell someone to their face that you have a new girlfriend? Learn some manners, and get real.

Yes, I'm fucking heart broken you found a new girl after one month. But you know what, I would've much rather hear it from you than some guy who's not even tight with you, and learn that a bunch of other stupid ass girls knew before me. I would've rather you been straight up honest with me, than be a little sneaky rat behind my back. Was it fucking hilarious? Listening to me tell you how I still liked you, how I rejected two guys for your stupid ass? All the while having a girl on the side? Was it worth it?

And holy mother of jesus don't get me started on the whole, "telling my little sister to tell me that you're sorry" crap. Seriously? Really? I don't want your sorrys you little bullshit. One, you're NOT sorry. If you were actually sorry, which means you actually care for me, then you wouldn't have done this in the first place. And two, you're not sorry that I'm hurt. You're just sorry that you feel bad. You're just sorry that you're wrong. So shut your dumb face.

Oh and you, you little whore? I'm done with your obnoxious laugh. I'm done with your inconsideration. Why don't you shut your mouth unless you're going to use it to kiss a guy you've only been on one date with again. Ha. Ha. Don't you ever dare call such an amazing guy "freaking retarded" again, or else I will destroy your very being. How DARE you call the best guy you'll probably ever have, that. You should be ashamed of yourself. I'm embarrassed on your part, really. Even as I type this I'm losing my anger, but really, just gaining a feeling of infinite pity for you. I'm sorry that you didn't cherish what you have. I'm sorry that you're so stupid you couldn't realize how people like him come only once in a life time. But now, once again, I feel a heatflash coming as I remember how you are ANNOYED that he's DEPRESSED over you. Bitch, use your flat chest, make a bridge, and get over yourself.

GOD. I'm so mad right now. So, so mad.

You are so lucky I actually hold the meaning of "relationship" deep near my heart. You couldn't even hold the meaning of our relationship closer than your raging hormones when we were together; But I'll honor it, even for your dumb ass. I seriously wish I could screw you over. But I can't, and I won't. One of my number one rules regarding dating is I will never, EVER, mess with another person's relationship. Ever. Not in any way, shape or form. I know all too well people doing that to me, and I could never inflict it on two other people.

And this is where my passive-aggressive side makes its role reversal, and I become totally calm and sad. (I'm literally writing this all in one go, and my mood is changing as I type this, no joke)

Listen, honestly. I'll leave you alone. I'm sorry that I wasn't good enough. I wasn't good enough naturally, and I didn't try hard enough to be so artificially. I'm happy that you're with such a cute girl, though it would've been so much easier on my part if you had "downgraded" I can't see you guys as matching each others personalities, but what do I know? I don't even know you anymore. We don't even talk. It hurts, but I'll get over it. I'm not even being cheesy when I say this; As long as you're happy with her, I'll be happy for you guys. Maybe I'll still be depressed, but really, I finally realize how it's not your job to care, and it hasn't been for awhile. As long as you're happy with her, and if it's legit, that you both truly like each other, then congratulations. However, if you're not TRULY happy with her, well, I'd say that's a real shame. I know well enough that you make such a great boyfriend; You deserve the best girlfriend to match you.

But right now? Right now we're strangers with a bad history, building a gap so wide and deep between us. It's sad, really. And my emotions are so crazy right now; I feel really alone. But what can I do? I believe in dating etiquette, and I'm bent on, due to my morality code, leaving you alone so you and her can be happy.

I hope you really are. I hope my self-rationalized "sacrifice" is worth it.

Vicki.

PS, Holy crap. This blogpost is the best example of crazy ass mood swings I have seen in my life time. Good job self #psychoforreal.