rose-hulman is a no-go.

Monday, March 18, 2013 | post a comment {0}

I get it now...when people are crushed because they are rejected from their dream schools. Technically, I had the grades and the test score to get in. Technically, I was accepted. But I just didn't do enough. I didn't get enough money to go. So in reality, I got rejected. I financially can't attend and now it's so fucking bittersweet because I was so close before it was snatched away from me.

I wish I had just never visited the campus and fell in love with the people, atmosphere and teaching style. Maybe I wouldn't be as indignant but now there's no turning back. I don't want to go anywhere else. I can't imagine being anywhere else. Everywhere is subpar in my mind now and I wish it wouldn't be, because now I know for a fact "somewhere else" is my future and I'm going to have to deal with it.

What can I say. I didn't try in high school and this is my punishment. If I had put in some effort, made myself less average, maybe I could've gotten the scholarships I needed. But it's too late now.

Why do we put up with conditions that make us unhappy to prepare for a life we probably won't be happy with in the future? I don't want to do life anymore. I just don't.